Loneliness Birthday

Here’s a more laid-back and casual version of your message that’s still heartfelt but with a more relaxed tone:

“Help Me Get a Birthday Gift For Myself”

Hey, so I’m going to be really honest here. For the past five years, I haven’t gotten a single gift for my birthday. Not one. It might sound like something small, but it actually hurts a lot more than you’d think. Every year, I hope that maybe this will be the year things will be different, but it never is. It’s been a tough ride, and honestly, I’m just tired of feeling like I’m invisible, especially on days that are supposed to be about me.

A little background: I’ve been struggling with a lot lately. I’ve failed my university entrance exams three times now, which makes me feel like I’m stuck in a loop of disappointment. It’s not easy, and every time I try to pick myself up, it feels like I’m just falling back down. The worst part? It feels like no one really notices. I don’t have people around me who celebrate my wins (or try to lift me up after I fail), and the one thing I’ve wanted for years is just a little recognition. Just a little “hey, you matter.”

This year, for my birthday, I was really hoping for something different. I’ve been thinking about how nice it would be to finally get a gift—just something small to show myself that I’m not forgotten. It doesn’t have to be anything crazy, just something to remind me that I’m worthy of a little love and care, you know? But as usual, my birthday passed and I was left feeling the same way I have for years. Alone.

So, here I am, swallowing my pride and asking for help. I’m not asking for a lot, just enough to get myself a gift. I’ve never been one to ask for handouts, but right now, I could really use a little kindness. It’s not about the material thing; it’s more about the feeling of finally being seen, of doing something nice for myself after years of getting nothing. Something that says, “You matter.”

If you’re reading this and can spare anything, even just a little bit, it would mean the world to me. It’s not about making a big deal out of my birthday—it’s more about showing myself that I don’t have to keep going through this on my own. That I can still get a little bit of joy out of something that’s been so hard for me. I’m not asking for sympathy; I’m just asking for a chance to feel a little better for once.

Thank you for taking the time to read this and for anything you can contribute. Even if you can’t donate, sharing this would be amazing. Anything helps, and I’ll be grateful for whatever comes my way.

This version is more relaxed, straightforward, and still honest about what you’re going through. It focuses on your feelings and the desire for a simple act of kindness while keeping the tone less formal.